I strongly dislike what I currently do. Which, at this point, is probably old news, but I think I’ve finally put my finger on why. While what I do *helps* people in the moment, it doesn’t *teach* people anything unless they’re really in the right mood/mindframe to be taught. Which, I’m finding, when people are on sightseeing tours of the nation’s capitol, they really aren’t. Teaching/learning vacations are obviously reserved for places like Plimoth Plantation where people know they’re in for the education when they get there.
I also sat around outside thisevening and made a list of Things I’m Absolutely 100% Sure I Believe In.
To date:
-Love
-Inability to control every little detail (I believe, but I’m still learning)
-Microcosms (interconnected events/groups of people that occur for a reason)
-Nobody is actually that big a deal. We all arrived screaming and naked and we all die.
-Happiness should be a priority. If you’re not happy, you need to find a way to be. (another I’m still learning)
The following page in my notebook says “CHECK THE FUCK OUT”
Sometimes I need to just take my own advice.
July 29th, 2009 at 5:03 am
Atleast you hate what you do but are a big enough person to knwo having a job is still more important. Unlike some siblings i know.