As I managed to get out on Twitter yesterday night, the only thing worse than vomiting is vomiting without your mommy around.
I managed to find some 24 hour flu at work yesterday, and although I’m now down below any fighting weight I’ve seen in the last year (woo) I’m realizing that being alone in an apartment and puking your face off is possibly one of the scariest things I’ve experienced. It’s bad enough being stuck in the middle of one of those AND NOW EVERYTHING WILL EXIT YOUR BODY moments, but to be there and knowing that if something goes really wrong, nobody will know until you don’t show up for something is terrifying.
I didn’t even know how EMT’s would get in to get me if it got that bad. My building has an external door that locks, so even if my door was unlocked, which it was, getting them up to my apartment alone would be a process. Add to that the fact that I knew, even as I was being a soggy mess in the tub, that my cell phone battery was dying, and I think that I’ve sort of proven now to myself that I can handle just about any situation.
The thing is that I’d just really like another body around who knew/cared where I was supposed to be, and could help me get through stuff like this. I’m not saying I want a roommate to be my mother, or even to clean up the bathtub, because dear god, that was awful enough there are only a few people in this world I’d wish it on, but like right now; I’m at that point where I should be drinking gatorade, and I just don’t know if I have enough in me energy-wise to get to the safeway and get that. If I had a second body around, at least I could put in a request for a gatorade pickup post-work.
It’s like I was saying to a friend a few weeks ago. Sometimes I just want to be able to turn to someone and be like “This needs to be done and I just can’t handle it right now,” and know that hey, it’s okay, they’ll make dinner tonight, and I can repay in kind when I’m coping again.
So… yeah. Now taking applications for a better half, whether it’s a BFF, a roommate, or a boyfriend.